What would life be like if you had done something different, or if something that did happen, didnt.  I know I do and I know that no matter how well my life is going right now, that I'd trade it all for the chance to have my brother back again.  I miss him a lot and this weekend is going to be tough, I'm glad I have friends to keep me company and occupied.  To all of you who have yet to feel the pain of losing a loved one, cherish them with everything you have, because one minute you could be laughing with them about how fucked up it is that your car is only firing off of 4 cylinders, then the next you are planning their funeral.  Watch out for them, hold them close, and never let one day go by that you dont tell them you love them for being there and for who they are. 

Today will not be very eventful for me.  Unless you call studying with a bunch of guys from work for the CCNA exam eventful.  Oh well.  I guess there is always next year.

For those who really know me, they know that this week is my birthday.  I remember when birthdays used to be something that you couldnt wait for, now its just another day to go "meh" at.  I did however take off of work so that I can have the day to do whatever it is that I want to do (probably will just play video games).  On November 11 I will turn 25.  It amazes me for some reason that I will be one quarter of a century old in less than 3 days.  What amazes me more is how fast the years have went by.  It seems only yesterday that I was graduating high school and now I have moved over 500 miles from my birthplace and am living a semi-normal life working for a cable company that at one time in my "adult" life used to loathe with a passion.  Odd how your life turns out sometimes.  I sometimes wonder where I would be had I done things differently. 

If I hadn't kicked Joy to the curb those many years ago, would we have indeed gotten married?  And if so, would I have been forced to become a "family man" with kids of my own?  If I had gone to college immediately after high school would I now be working for some computer or consulting firm? Or would I still have ended up where I am just hating it more BECAUSE of the fact that I have a college degree and still got stuck where I am.  There's a lot to think about.  Ah well, I cant change the past, all I can do is try to shape the future.  Here's to another year.  May the next one be my best! :)  Goodnight folks